I have always been a bit of a chunk.
The chunkiness has gone up and down over time, but still a chunk nonetheless.
On the emotional side, I think I've subconsciously (or otherwise) kept myself that way as a security blanket. If you're not attractive, nobody will be interested and therefore you won't get hurt.
It's taken a while to get over that and start to gain some confidence and people have helped me along the way. One in particular more than they know.
The chunkiness has caused me health problems in the form of a large hiatus hernia. It does need an op to repair but they won't operate until my BMI is at least down to 30.
They explained the reasons why as being because if it's caused by being overweight (it is) then repairing whilst still overweight means it will just pop back up into my diaphragm again.
So I get their reasons and accept them. I have kicked myself up the arse.
Going to make a confession now.
At my absolute heaviest, I was 18st 6lbs.
Lots of reasons why I got that big, which I won't go into...
But now I need to get to around 13.5 - 14 stone to reach that BMI goal and get this op done.
What I didn't expect to find was that I'm actually loving coming up with healthy alternatives to ingredients and making up my own fat free recipes.
I'm going to post the successful ones as I go along. Aftter all, still finding out what works and what doesn't.
So welcome to the Yellow Brick Road. Feel free to join me. :)
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